For people who kill themselves


“Stay were you’re happy.”
(Colin Douglas Bell)


Met two girls at The Edinburgh Festival the other day, stayed with them forever. We bonded after a discussion about a spit roasting and I was hoping we could have one together. They are stand up comedians and fucking cool. Invited me down to London for The Notting Hill Carnival.

2 days later packed bags to go to London and wrote Tom a note while he was out.
“Something or other… ya just the way you are, haven’t been sad to leave a place yet, til now.”

People always get into him about his drinking, do they think hassling him about it will make him stop?

I don’t like to cross the same path twice so I was intent on going to Spain from London then hitching allover the other side of the world.

On the way to the terminal I watched the trendies walking down Sauciehall St, couldn’t help smile at them. I laughed listening to the accents of a couple arguing and looked up in the usual awe of Glasgow architecture and said “fucken Glasgow,” with upward curled lips.

At the bus terminal I sat with some smack heads and let them pincer some tobacco out of my pouch with their filthy fingers. I read them poetry.

I just sat there without buying a ticket, bus after bus left. 1130pm came and I just shut my eyes focussing on my body hoping the clouds would part. I said “London” to myself quietly without little response. Then “Glasgow.”
A charge fired through my stomach and down into my legs. I smiled and repeated twice more.

I skipped out of there and pressed up against a Starbucks window to steal wifi, ringing Tommy on Skype.
Told him I changed my mind and was coming back. He said he was sad to see me go and that I was more than welcome to return.

We sat up and watched Tutti Frutti til 6am.

I live here.



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  1. Joanne #
    August 29, 2013

    Hey mr. It’s me ( 1 of your spit roast fantasies) lolz. U missed a great carnival but glad u r safe an feel at home in glasgee! Don’t be a stranger. Xxxxx

  2. hollowroseheart #
    August 29, 2013


  3. August 29, 2013

    Wick (ed)

  4. hollowroseheart #
    August 29, 2013

    Oh hey, there is. Cool. Found it.

  5. August 29, 2013

    Yeah but im following loads of geezers and i dont check the reader very often at all at least if i get the email i can read it from my inbox. There is an option in your admin bar to add a “follow me by email,” box. Just letting you know. 😛

  6. hollowroseheart #
    August 29, 2013

    He’ll if I know how this shiz works. Just click on follow eh?

  7. August 29, 2013

    Trying to figure out how to get emails wen u post

  8. hollowroseheart #
    August 29, 2013

    Yay, we have a following party then!!!!! Sweet

  9. August 29, 2013

    Fucking ditto to yours

  10. hollowroseheart #
    August 29, 2013

    This is a blog I will enjoy following very much.

  11. August 29, 2013

    AWESOME. When I read the words “I live here” it made me smile widely.

    Also this combination of sentences (the ones following in parentheses) made me laugh and reminded me of one of the reasons you are such an interesting person to talk to because -like a pinata, you don’t know what combination of candy words you are going to get with you. 🙂 (At the bus terminal I sat with some smack heads and let them pincer some tobacco out of my pouch with their filthy fingers. I read them poetry.)

    I am glad you went back to Tommy’s!!!

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